AP exam and such

AP Government exam....
I hyperventilated before the exam and almost did afterwards.

Overall it was alright. Ms. Duggan scared the shit out of me when she said we only had 5 minutes left when it was actually 30.

We had auditions today for Dracula and I tried out for Mina I think I did alright. I'll find out on Wed.

I also find out tomorrow if I got a babysitting job over the summer. I hope I do

I need the money.

Had a rough last night but today everything is ok

Yesterday I applied flat out for 7 jobs

Applied for 2 more at home.
I'm going to be on my third tomorrow.
I was going to apply to two more BUT one's website isn't working and the other one's website is so confusing it makes me want to slap it.

I didn't really want to work at the place the website is hard to figure out anyway.

Last night Chris was all "blah blah"
Today he was better so we're good :3

I've recently been addicted to the Ukulele version of "What you're told". Which is sung by Stephen from Midnight beast. I don't know if he wrote the song but I know there's a studio version coming out or is out somewhere but I love this version. It has meaning, but that's not just why i like it. His voice is very unique and I love the tune.

:D toodles.

Oh did you see the new i-phone on gizmodo?
awesome

Why do I always make my blogs at like 2am?

That I do not know.

Probably because I have nothing better to do lmao.
I have a story for yous though.

I needed a strapless bra for this dress I was going to wear to this confirmation party
so I went to Victoria's secret and this girl named Helene helped me. She was really nice
and mom was like 'can you make sure she's the right size?' and the lady was like sure
but she couldn't be accurate because my shirt was particularly tight so it was getting a 34 C but she knew I wasn't that so she went with what I told her 34 D
so she handed me a few and talked about them I went to try the two on
and when I had the second one on i was like
ok
I like this one, it doesn't slip or anything. and the lady asked me if I wanted her to see if it fitted right
and i said sure
she walked in and said "uh... you have it on too tight"
and then she tried to make it looser but it was too loose
she's like "i need to measure you"
she then looked at me and said
you're wearing the wrong bra size

you should have seen the look on my mom's face
she was about to die
she was like OMG NOOOOOOO
and I was like LMAO I'm the same size you were in highschool!

So the lady gave me a regular bra to try on to show me what a bra should feel like
i was like
OMG THIS IS SO COMFY AND NICE
and it was an adorable floral bra with lace on it
and I ended up getting that bra

Has fun with fun story.

other than that I went to Chris's little sister's confirmation party and had fun with his cousins/uncles and such. They're all nice people

So my dog...

She isn't fine.

We have to put her down tomorrow.

*cries*
I'll never be able to make it through tomorrow.

What's up with my dog and maybe what's with me.

My dog has Lime disease. She's going to be fine so yay!

My friend broke up with her bf cause he was possessive (which he was, and he's a total douche nozzle but I digress) and she likes my other friend, who was straight but now she thinks she really likes her so they went to a party together and had fun, so they're going to go over one of their houses to see if they'd date.

What's up with me? Nothing, I'm less stressed from the school work. I've come to realize that when something happens it happens. I've come to accept it.
Woo

I realize that someone I know is watching this.

Therefore I can't say too much stuff about things that involve people in my school.

I will say a few things though. I'm totally stressed out. I haven't been getting work done because of all of the nerve things going on. Maybe I finally lost it. My chest gets heavy almost every time I thought about it. It's not bad now but yesterday it was bad. I almost couldn't breathe.

Also my dog is really sick. I'm afraid she's going to have to be put down. At least I was on Monday but I think now she's alright, but probably has a urinary tract infection.

Therapy

I started last week but just now feel like writing about it.

I have a therapist. For all of the emotional issues and depression and insecurities and stuff like that. D:

So I'm working on it.


Yeah. I'm in a blah mood right now.

I'm worrying over something that there is absolutely no need to worry about.
So I'm attacking it by going numb.